Welcome January 2021!
... and here I go with a new idea, a new process, a new learning, a new way of connecting, that I want to share with you, .....because it came to me in a most interesting way.
Have you ever taken the time to sit in quiet, and listen? Just listen and see what comes up for you?
Well, this morning during my quiet time, what surfaced for me was "connections". Now, I didn't really hear the word aloud being spoken, but I did "hear" it. A very strong intuitive idea/thought/energy that rattled my mind. A thought that was loud enough that it actually stuck in my head, like a song. You know the times when a song gets stuck in your head and you can't seem to get it out of your mind? Please tell me you know what I am talking about.
Now, I had to do something. I had to make a decision. As with any thought/idea/premonition that occurs, I had two choices. Option one, I could ignore it and go about my day, never to think of it again. Option two, I could pay attention and witness whether or not it would surface again.
What do you think happened next????
Yup, you guessed it, option two and.... it surfaced again! That was it....the seed was planted, so it was time to pay attention to it. The how, why, when, where and what were still totally unknown, but the seed existed, the "connection" seed was planted.
It was time to decide on how to nourish this seed, to see if it would grow. My first instantaneous thought was to "get to work and figure things out". Yes, that is it, it must be time to to build a larger audience in my social media.... by creating more relevant daily content. Then I got to wondering what that could look like and how could I create more engaging content.
WHAM, it hit like a ton of bricks. Just thinking about adding more daily content in social media immediately brought huge negative emotions and tons of self doubt. Many questions surfaced so fast, it was almost surreal.
"What does my audience need to hear from me?"
"How do I know what they need?"
"What if I post something that makes followers leave?"
"Am I really connecting to people with my content anyway?"
I had to do something fast, because I knew if I kept letting my thoughts carry me away into the dark side of my thinking I would definitely stilt myself, and quit pretty much before I even got started, (which I am all too familiar with).
Here I was at a fork in the road, with so much at stake. I knew that if I kept trying to move into action too fast, I would stop myself and let the self doubt win. Moving into action too quickly didn't actually feel right and I was worried that I might miss something. What exactly would I miss? I had no idea, but this epiphany occurred AND RIGHT THEN.....I stopped my thoughts literally dead in their tracks and let go. I actually let go of all the chatter in my head, and made a decision to just sit with it. I realized that it was not time to decide anything or focus on it anymore. I was meant to step away, stop planning, thinking, deciding anything, and just let the ideas sit in limbo, and wait and see what happens. Immediate calmness came back to me when I released the idea of getting to work with planning, and creating. It was time to get on with my day. So, I did.
About three hours later, I had a thought (seemingly out of left field), to build a blog and write down my experiences, ideas, and premonitions to share with others.
to care for my seeds
* I want to thank you as my first reader of my very first ever blog post.
* I want to encourage you to listen to your premonition, even if at first you don't act upon it.
* I want you to know that I am grateful for you and excited to hear if you felt any kind of connection, relevance, or thought cross your mind as you read this post.
Please feel free to comment, as I value your thoughts.